I’m writing this ‘offline’ as the internet went down four hours ago at the motel I’m staying in, which is pretty bad, as I’m now essentially ‘cut off’ from the outside world. Knowing my luck (or lack thereof) it won’t be fixed for days. No one can reach me by email now and I have no way of communicating with my mother or anyone else.
This is singlehandedly the most depressing Halloween I’ve ever experienced. I’m alone in a dark motel room with no way of reaching anyone. I could die and no one would discover my body for at least 48 hours. While people are out having fun or having a night in with their friends, families and loved ones, I’m just here alone in the darkness, illuminated by the lights from the nearby highway. I wish that I could experience the happiness, fun and togetherness that most people have and take for granted, especially on days such as Halloween, Valentine’s Day, Thanksgiving and Christmas. Something tells me that the upcoming holiday period is going to be a very lonely and painful time.
I took my medication early, so hopefully I’ll fall asleep anytime soon, before I start losing my mind.
It’s now 2:30am and the internet is finally back. I’m very relieved at that, at least. I was beginning to panic.