I decided to reactivate my OK Cupid account. I had deactivated it after an incident of harassment from a guy who said he saw me at the Transit Center here in Rochester (see ‘Re-opened wounds‘). I realize that I am taking a huge risk again, but it made me feel at less a little ‘human’ at times.
I’ve actually started talking to a trans girl in Indiana. I didn’t realize she was trans when I clicked like on her profile, though it does not matter at all to me. She messaged me first and seems really sweet, cute and intelligent and we have a lot in common, such as similar taste in music and equally left wing views. I hope that at the very least it’ll turn into a ‘healthy’ friendship, or possibly even more. We also both have issues with anxiety.
I’m honestly still not sure what I want from a partner. I’d kind of decided that I wasn’t going to date any more women after so many bad experiences and certain needs I have not getting met, but I’m not going to write it off. I’m so fed up and disappointed by the way men are towards me online that I can’t see myself meeting a man online anyway.
I just have to be careful and keep my guard up.