I have not had luck with the transgender community. I feel just as much of an outcast within that community as I do anywhere else. For the second time, a transgender individual has done an immense amount of damage. I asked her a simple question:
“But you also think I look like a freakish man?” (See comments in ‘Re-opened Wounds’ post)
Instead of answering the question as to whether I not only look like an 80 year old male, she deflected (like a politician would who refuses to answe a specific question) and gave me the usual ‘female inside’ bullshit that 3 years into transition is highly insulting. I kept asking her and she kept deflecting, so I got angry and asked her to unfollow me.
I unfollowed another transgender person on here who was a clear narcissist. That seems to be common in the transgender community. They claim they’re helping, but they are M week doing so to make themselves feel better about their own transition.
I am still devastated by the abuse on OK Cupid and disappointed that a transgender person has essentially confirmed that what was said about me is true.
I can’t do this anymore. I have therapy later and I’m at the point where I’m not going to tell my therapist how bad things are and how close I am to the edge. It is all a waste of time. Despite taking extra sleeping meds, I can’t sleep. This bullshit is circling around in my head and eating me alive. I would end my life right now, if that were even possible. I am finished at this point.
I’ve found a way out. Plan X needs to become reality, before any further decline in my mental health which might render me incapable.